Although I feel BLESSED BEYOND BELIEF to do this, I now have a full time and part time job. Caring for Brantley is a 24/7 (your favorite term mom) job and on top of that I am working part time for my previous job. PLUS keeping up a house and trying to keep my husband fed. Have I bit off more than I can chew? When I started thinking about all this I found the perfect quote...
The cleaning and scrubbing will wait till tomorrow, for children grow up, I've learned to my sorrow. So quiet down cobwebs, dust go to sleep. I'm rocking my baby and babies don't keep.
Could not have said it better myself. I don't know why but this reminded me of something my grandmother would say. I wish she was here to answer some of my "mothering" questions. I bet if I asked her if holding and rocking a baby all the time was bad she would say "absolutely not." Of course the next best thing (my mama) is here for all my questions and concerns and she always has the answer!
So back to my first day, I am a pretty organized person and when things get out of place or my routine gets messed up it drives me kind of crazy. So far these past 7 weeks have been anything BUT routine and things have definitely been out of place. It has taught me a few things:
-dishes, laundry and a clean house can wait
-a new "normal" will come with time
-enjoy every moment (good and bad) because it will pass quickly
Sunday Brantley smiled at her daddy for the first time. Of course I tried the rest of the day to get a slight smirk with no results. Yesterday morning she smiled at me for the first time. If she had been at daycare I would have missed this moment! I can't imagine what moms go through having to leave their children everyday for 8 hours then come home exhausted only to spend a few hours with their baby. Although working from home is going to be extremely difficult not only physically and mentally, I truly believe it is all worth it in the end. I'm thankful to have such a good support system of family!
Now for an update on Brantley! She has been doing well and not much has changed from my last post. I have learned she hates the car seat. I can't figure out if it's poking her in the legs or if she just hates being restrained. She is still an extremely active 7 week old and doesn't want to miss a thing! She sleeps maybe 4-5 hours during the day (2 good naps) and eats about every 2-3 hours. She has had some 5 to 6 hour stretches at night! Still sleeping on her stomach... She is starting to focus on things now for a few seconds at a time. Sometimes during the day she can be hard to handle. She LOVES to be outside and that will instantly calm her. She is still in the side sleeper. Now during naps and at night she has to have her Soothie pacifier so it's much easier to lay in bed and reach over to pop it back in. It will get easier once she can grab it and stick it back in herself but that could be months!
Now for a picture of my sweet baby. I upload most of my pictures to Facebook because it's easier than Blogger but I want to try and put a few on here for memories!
**First time moms/moms to be, this website will make you feel so much better!!
First Auburn game
pretty blue eyes
first smile at daddy
first ride to see the horses
From my birthday in August