Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Working Overtime

Yesterday I started my first day "working from home." What?! The past 9 months all I've talked about is "working from home" and it's here?! Well I definitely had a weird mix of emotions. Like my mama said yesterday after I told her this story, I have always been a "rule follower." Terrified of getting in trouble for anything! Well that hasn't changed! Yesterday I felt like I was doing something wrong. I was at home, enjoying my baby, watching TV and "working from home." I felt like I was skipping school!! After about 2 hours I got a grip and started to feel like myself again. I turned off the TV, put Brantley in her Snugli carrier and got to work! And it was great! Then I reminded myself of what little pay I am getting and took the afternoon "off." :)

Although I feel BLESSED BEYOND BELIEF to do this, I now have a full time and part time job. Caring for Brantley is a 24/7 (your favorite term mom) job and on top of that I am working part time for my previous job. PLUS keeping up a house and trying to keep my husband fed. Have I bit off more than I can chew? When I started thinking about all this I found the perfect quote...

The cleaning and scrubbing will wait till tomorrow, for children grow up, I've learned to my sorrow. So quiet down cobwebs, dust go to sleep. I'm rocking my baby and babies don't keep. 

Could not have said it better myself. I don't know why but this reminded me of something my grandmother would say. I wish she was here to answer some of my "mothering" questions. I bet if I asked her if holding and rocking a baby all the time was bad she would say "absolutely not." Of course the next best thing (my mama) is here for all my questions and concerns and she always has the answer!

So back to my first day, I am a pretty organized person and when things get out of place or my routine gets messed up it drives me kind of crazy. So far these past 7 weeks have been anything BUT routine and things have definitely been out of place. It has taught me a few things:

-let go
-dishes, laundry and a clean house can wait
-a new "normal" will come with time
-enjoy every moment (good and bad) because it will pass quickly

Sunday Brantley smiled at her daddy for the first time. Of course I tried the rest of the day to get a slight smirk with no results. Yesterday morning she smiled at me for the first time. If she had been at daycare I would have missed this moment! I can't imagine what moms go through having to leave their children everyday for 8 hours then come home exhausted only to spend a few hours with their baby. Although working from home is going to be extremely difficult not only physically and mentally, I truly believe it is all worth it in the end. I'm thankful to have such a good support system of family!

Now for an update on Brantley! She has been doing well and not much has changed from my last post. I have learned she hates the car seat. I can't figure out if it's poking her in the legs or if she just hates being restrained. She is still an extremely active 7 week old and doesn't want to miss a thing! She sleeps maybe 4-5 hours during the day (2 good naps) and eats about every 2-3 hours. She has had some 5 to 6 hour stretches at night! Still sleeping on her stomach... She is starting to focus on things now for a few seconds at a time. Sometimes during the day she can be hard to handle. She LOVES to be outside and that will instantly calm her. She is still in the side sleeper. Now during naps and at night she has to have her Soothie pacifier so it's much easier to lay in bed and reach over to pop it back in. It will get easier once she can grab it and stick it back in herself but that could be months!

Now for a picture of my sweet baby. I upload most of my pictures to Facebook because it's easier than Blogger but I want to try and put a few on here for memories!

**First time moms/moms to be, this website will make you feel so much better!!

One month

First Auburn game

pretty blue eyes

first smile at daddy

first ride to see the horses

War Eagle!

From my birthday in August

Saturday, September 1, 2012

One Month

I'm doing this from my phone so excuse any typos! I have pictures on my camera but haven't had time to upload them yet. Brantley now wants to be held all the time so I rarely have a free hand! 

Sunday was her one month birthday! I can't believe how fast the time has gone by. 5 weeks ago today we were bringing her home. It's amazing how the days pass by so fast! 

Here are a few things I want to remember about Brantley at this age:
-at her one month doctor appointment she weighed 10 lb 7 oz (85th percentile) and she was 22 1/4" (90th percentile). The doctor said she would be tall and that her blue eyes were a
done deal!
-she is still on mommy milk and it's going very well! She is eating some where around 4 oz 
-sleep is pretty good. She goes at least every 2 hours and sometimes 3 at night. We were sleeping in the nursery, B in the side sleeper, so Justin could rest. Now we have moved back in the bedroom. 
-you love your bath! And you love being outside! You love to be flipped over on your stomach, laying on my arm. Earlier this week I swear you smiled at me! You're still not totally focusing on eyes though. You love light and looking out windows.
-we sometimes give you a pacifier to help you sleep when you get really tired. The only on you take is the Gumdrop which looks so funny because we can see in your mouth while you are sucking. You're the only 5 week old I know that fights naps! You definitely got your business from your daddy although neither of is sit still too long! 
-you have already been on multiple boat rides and even made it to church. We were
5 minutes late and John stopped church so everyone could see you. Of course you woke up and I ended up walking around with you in the back of church to get you to sleep
-I don't think you're colicky but we think something is making you fussy during the day so we started probiotic drops
-I'm still not totally comfortable with you being around strangers so we hang around the house a lot

Next week I start back to work part time. I thank God I am not going to an office from 8-5 and taking you to daycare but it will be tough not being able to devote all my time to you! 

I am going to post your month pictures as soon as I get a chance!